We Are Enough

 

"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted." Proverbs 5:9 NIV


Happy Summer everyone!!

I am amazed that it's already the middle of July.  School is coming up fast and another season of high school soccer is upon us.  I'm excited and thankful that my daughter is healthy and happy.  That is a true blessing!!

Our summer was full of blessings.  We got to go to a Florida beach and hang out.  We did a girl's trip with my sister and niece.  The picture above was taken by my sister.  I love it.  The contrast of the colors with the sunset behind is amazing.  This picture is not photo shopped.  We seen this as we were heading back to the marina after a dolphin watching trip.  God's art work always amazes me.  What precious gems he gifts us when we least expect it. 

Our trip was a true blessing and I am so thankful that God gave us the opportunity to spend valuable time together, just us girls.  The trip was bittersweet because the day after we left was the 6th anniversary of Kirk's passing.  We got to the beach around 4 that day.  It was incredible to breathe in the ocean air and remember the good times with Kirk.  I am truly blessed to have been married to him and to share the birth of our girl together.  I always counted Kirk as a wonder for us finding each other; and Emily as our special miracle from God.  She is a true gift.  Thank you Lord for the blessings!!  I am so thankful beyond measure!

I know this time of year can be hard seeing pictures of families enjoying their summer trips together.  I know as a solo parent, seeing families during vacation is hard.  I look at these families and think how awesome it is for them to all be together sharing precious moments and making special memories together.  I found myself feeling down a few times just because of Kirk's anniversary and seeing happy families.  I had to remind myself that it was the enemy trying to keep me from enjoying my time with my sister, niece, and Emily.  He likes to steal our joy and make it seem we aren't enough.  I'm here to tell you we are enough and we were enough.  When these feelings well up inside of you, reflect on John 10:10, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." NIV

I know it's hard to think you can have a full and enjoyable life, but I'm here to tell you that you can.  You have to trust that God will see you on your path and that He will bless you for that faith.  Proverbs 3:6 states, "in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight."  Giving in fully and letting go of control of your own life is hard, I know this first hand.  But once you relent your life to God, wow!! What a relief!!!  I had to come to a point where I just said, Lord I can't do this any longer.  I cannot be in the driver's seat anymore.  I am so exhausted and spent.  I know in my heart that it is a sin to try and control situations, events, emotions, and most certainly other people.  I found that it was time to allow myself to grieve, cry, hope, laugh, and love!!!  And most importantly, TRUST!!  Trusting God with everything in your life is one of the best presents you can give yourself. 

God loves you and nothing can separate His love for you!!!  He wants you to see this time of your life as a chapter, and with every book chapters end and new ones begin.  Trust that God will pull you through this chapter and that He has a new and great one waiting for you.  In His time He will let us turn that page and we will be amazed at the beauty of the next chapter.  We just have to be patient and trust that in His time, we will be truly blessed.

Lord I pray that while we patiently wait for Your next chapter for us, we will see the beauty in the chapter that we are in.  I pray that we are reminded every day that we are enough because You love us and we are Your children.  I pray for every person reading this that they find joy, peace, comfort, and healing.  Lord thank you for the many blessings that you have given us.  You are faithful and a good, good Father.  In Your Precious Name..Amen